A Woman Needs...

To be pursued
To be loved
To be cared for
To be protected
To be sheltered
To be held
To be comforted
To be desired
To be beautiful
To be worthy
To be valuable
To be cherished
To be needed

To have purpose

Cease Striving

So I had a bit of a revelation today. Seriously for the first time in a long time I really feel that God spoke directly to me. Not audibly, or even in my head, but by leading me to his Word. It's pretty amazing. Most of you probably do not know that for a while I have just felt completely spiritually dead. I mean I have had no desire to seek God, but I did desire to desire to seek him, if that makes any sense. Anyway, the lack of love and passion in my heart for the Lord ached at me all the time. I've spent most of my days trying to figure out how I can get that back. I've literally agonized. Today I read a survey that someone posted and her love for God was so evident in it, that it just broke my heart. I mean I was kinda jealous because I wanted to love the Lord and have the passion that she did. So I figured I have to do something. I'm tired of sitting around trying to figure out how to change this I got up and went to my bookshelf and just stared at it for a few minutes and prayed (in my head) that God would just help me find something that would help push me forward out of the rut. Finally I decided to just pick up a little devotional type book I had that was sort of a "checklist" of things women can do in their growing with God I also grabbed a Bible, which wasn't mine, just an NASB version that had been sitting on the shelf. I read the little devotion for the day and then looked at the to do list. One of the things to do was memorize a Bible verse and it recommended Psalms 46:1. I turned to it and read it and then continued to read. I'm not one to just read one verse. Then when I got to Psalm 46:10, my mouth about dropped. The verse says "Cease striving and know that I am God" It shocked me. I mean this whole time all I've been doing is trying to figure out how I can get my passion for God back. Then I looked up the verse online because I was quite sure that this was a translation of "Be still and know that I am God" which I found out it was. I was so amazed. I have read that verse so many times and tried to figure out how I can be still... like did it literally mean to get alone and just sit there. Then when I read the verse in the NASB and looked up the Hebrew Words, sure enough it means, "Cease striving, abort, forsake" in a sense STOP IT. I've spent all this time trying to figure out how to be "right" with God and how to get that passion back and God has been trying to tell me "Stop it. Just know that I am God" It's amazing that I have never figured this out before. I mean people tell me all the time that my walk with God is not about what I do and do not do for him and its not about how I can get myself "right" but its about God. I guess it just actually sticks when God is literally screaming the words of the page. I have no doubt that God lead me to that verse today. I would have never thought to pick up the "checklist" devotional. I barely ever read from a Bible that is not mine. It was just a God thing And its pretty awesome